My “not” NaNoWrMo Month
I’m NOT doing the NaNoWrMo month, though I’m envious of all who are. My WIP is well along the way, so I thought I’d use the NaNo inspiration and discipline to track my progress on finishing my second draft – including adding the ending – and whipping it into a new structure.
So week one: (I started – so am counting last week – even though it wasn’t quite November.) Finally, I wrote the last two chapters. Thank God. These two have been me eluding for months. Every time I thought I came close to finishing, I found another storyline I’d not tied up, or brought to the finish line too. So back I’d go. And, I realised I’d not built the momentum to the climax enough, or painted a vivid enough picture to show how my characters got there. The climax is rather shocking, and I hadn’t built the motivations/mood enough to warrant the crisis yet. I didn’t even want to play at writing it, until I had everything in place. So I kept writing, until, finally, two weeks ago, I was there.
Then I had a crappy week of procrastination and forgot any good advice “just write it” that I’ve ever passed on to anyone else. Finally I figured out the problem. I was terrified. Terrified of finishing. And sick to my stomach in case I couldn’t pull it off. What if the end turned out to be rubbish?
Well, I have to say – now it’s written – it did turn out a bit rubbish. Not unmitigated shred immediately rubbish, but it’s not the strong, resonating finish I was after. I’m taking heart recalling Arnold Zable once say that his first drafts are flat, and it’s in the second, he brings them to life. (Technically, my ending is still first draft – so there’s hope for it.) For now, I’m letting myself off the hook and thinking at least it’s finally written. Now I’ve got something to work with – actually I’ve got a whopping 130,463 words to work with.
So onward I go. This week, I want to see if I can breathe some life into my ending, and then address some of the multiple red ink “notes to self” throughout the mss to see if I can clear up a few issues and add in some details.
Meanwhile, I’ve rediscovered Wordle and loved having a play using my manuscript to see the word clouds it creates using some of the text. Well, I can’t work every minute.